So for the last few weeks God has been really speaking to my heart about some things but unfortunately I have been ignoring Him. But I can no longer ignore Him. Yesterday I was blessed to hear my son, Jordan, preach. He had been asked to come bring the message at a local church for a youth led service. His message was about the fear of the Lord and how we can be so arrogant that we don't really fear God and His wrath. Without that fear, we cannot truly appreciate His greatness and His love for us. Then today on the way home with Jordan in the car we were listening to Jimmy Needham and his song, Clear the Stage, began playing (click on the title to hear this song). These words were like a slap in my face and it was as if God was saying to me --- "Tonya, it's time for you to stop being arrogant and just going through the motions of serving me. You need to learn to fear Me for who I am and lay aside your idols!" WOW!!!!
You see for the last few weeks, I have felt God leading me to go on a Facebook fast and today it became very clear that this is what I need to do. I have been more consumed with catching up with all my Facebook friends than I have been with spending time with my Lord & Savior -the very one that gave His life for me. I have been more interested in everyone's status updates and not concerned with how God is trying to update my life. It's time for me to make God #1 in my life and for my focus to be completely on Him. I am not saying Facebook is a sin nor am I saying that it is an idol for anyone else --- but I am saying that it has become an idol to me --- I have been spending more time on Facebook that I have been in His word! So for the next 40 days I am fasting from Facebook. If you need to get in contact with me, you can inbox me or send me an email. I will still receive my inbox messages on my phone but I will not be checking status updates or posting updates for the next 40 days. For those of you who read my daily prayer postings, I am asking you to pray for me each morning in place of looking for an update from me. I am so ready for God to move in my life like He has never done before - like I have never allowed Him to before - and I believe this is the first step.
I am so looking forward to how God is going to bless & I am expecting Him to teach me many things over the next several weeks. I love you all and pray that each of you will fear the greatness of our Lord and search yourself to make sure He is truly Lord of your life!
By the way -- this is the part of the song that really made me stop and think:
Anything I put before my God is an idol.
Anything I want with all my heart is an idol.
Anything I can't stop thinking of is an idol.
Anything that I give all my love is an idol.
We must not worship something that's not even worth it.